.the unexpected

i never expect to hear from her, or to have any conversation with her again.
it was just too freaking random and unexpected, after so many years.

then some emotional thing was triggered.
then the long weekend was filled with all kind of questions and busy dealing with the past moments.

yea, the long weekend was tiring. my mind wouldn't want to rest for a second, force quit didn't work.

i think i was never out of it, i am still, in the core of tornado, letting it tear my emotional barrier apart.

letting it go is not the end, you have to get prepared to be haunted again and again once in a while but you won't collapse.

the fact is, some parts of me, still collapsed, after so long.