.so long

it's been mad crazy days for me, non-stop of photoshoots, getting props, design executions, meetings, and planning.

trust me, it's tiring, and i seriously hope it will come to an end soon, at least some free time for me to digest, think, and go through things that i have been taking in, it has really reached the extent which i feel like throwing out during the progress. 0_o

i know it's part of the working life, being busy and some bad times, but it yucks a lot, it would be ideal that at least there are some people who are with you, getting things done together and helps to minimize the suffers, but sadly, the current place doesn't offer me this.

what to do? accept the fact, buck up, chin up and fight alone, and sometimes i will ask Dark Mocha or McD for some motivations, of cos they do help, but sometimes things just get pretty nasty that they don't help at all, despite the huge amount i consume.

i should seriously consider a 2nd career, but no answer has yet to be found, not even a clue, or maybe i am not being serious enough about it. "/

i guess i am in the stage again, whereby i just want to take a break, away from the daily work routine, get some inspiring impacts and rest as much as i can.

or maybe it's just an execuse for myself to escape from whatever that i am not comfortable with.

i don't know, kinda lost.

i need another breakthrough, to bring me further.

i can't stay this way forever, that sucks.

of cos, it doesn't come to me straight, i gonna work my ass hard to search for it, nothing comes easy. "_

well, stay happy, stay positive, be grateful, maybe they will help a little.

take care fellows, i hope you all are doing good, bad things are there always, they can't be worse, unless you give up and never stand up again.

smile, goodnight.

i miss you all.